Race in the snow

Happy Birthday to Kim Jungmo of The Trax, Son Hoyoung of former G.O.D and Oh Wonbin of F.T Island!

Today I've only been in the stables. Both Jossan and Emelie were there, so we rode out together. When we had came to a straight path, Emelie wanted to see how fast Xet can trot, so we started trotting. But since it was pretty much snow it was a bit heavy for him and we didn't get any speed. Then Jossan said we could race a little in the slope that was coming. I just said okay and then we let the horses run.

That's a feeling many will never get to feel. Feeling the power of a horse that descend from fields of freedom, carrying you over snow covered paths and green fields with the ever-changing wind in one's hair and the sun warming your face, hearing only the sound of the horses' hoofs.
To feel the freedom.

Xet and I won, the others didn't get by. In the next slope, Emelie shortened her stirrup leathers and then she and Jossan got to start in front of me and Xet. But when we started galloping again, Xet and I ran by both of them and won again ^^ We're not that easy beaten =P


Now I've been looking through some forums and so, and this is an article about H.O.T's fans that I read on http://dedicatedtohot02.cjb.net/. I must say, H.O.T fans are really different than todays fans... The H.O.T fans that I've talked to (even though just over the net) are much more different than fans of TVXQ, F.T Island, Super Junior and all... No offence, I just wanted to state that.

“Although our hearts are still one, but each of them has gone on the separate ways…”

We’ve been waiting for such a long time, so long that we’ve forgotten a lot of things.

Hee Jun, who always has his warming smile on his face, has always looking strong. He sings the powerful rock music that made all of us think that he is the strongest amongst all.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is actually a very fragile person. When he sings the song that he wrote for the guys (refer to h.o.t) he cried, he always only has 4 back dancer. His heart still remains at the time where they were together…. Before he left (for the services), he said: don’t leave me, if you change your heart then all you are liars, betrayers, idiots, cowards…

Oppa, we knew how you feel… Didn’t we make a promise before? When you’re back here with us, we would let you see oceans of white colored balloons…

Though he could be funny at times, but, because most of the time he doesn’t smile, a lot of people thinks that he is a cold blooded person.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is a caring person. It’s just that he couldn’t express things in words. He would kindly ask the fans that have been waiting outside of his house to go home sooner once they feel cold. He used 3 million to buy 3 songs of H.O.T just because we want to hear it. He can smile saying, “I’m H.O.T’s Jang Woo Hyuk,”

Oppa, it’s been quite some time that we didn’t see each other. I’ve been telling myself that you would do well; even I knew that it’s just a lie to comfort myself. I’ve been praying that you would live well, but what I see is that you’ve become so skinny… My heart hurts… If we really did something wrong, then shouldn’t you just blame it on us and not making him suffer?

Tony, who made us feel that he doesn’t care about a thing.

But, we’ve forgotten that he is a sensitive person. He remembers every single thing that got something to do with H.O.T. Because of one word, he could cry out loud in Guerilla Concert. He said, “I don’t mind if you all like other handsome and pretty singers, but please don’t leave us behind,” He also wrote, “We have to see each other again in heaven, that way, we could be together forever…,”

Oppa, maybe you don’t know that we won’t be able to leave someone that we love so much… We promised that we would meet again in heaven someday…

Kang Ta who has always been receiving the blame, he would just smile at us, making us forget that he is actually not that strong enough…

Don’t you all remember? When he went to buy food for us? When he gives us his umbrellas just because he afraid we would caught in cold when it’s raining. When he sees us crying, he said, “Don’t cry, I love all you…,”

Oppa, my heart hurts knowing you’ve been forcing yourself to smile when people badmouthing you, you don’t even try to explain a thing…

Jae Won who has been living peacefully

But we’ve forgotten that he has his own pride. He gets angry of himself when he did some mistake in the last concert. In his downtime, he bravely announced, “This album is not succeed, I, Lee Jae Won, withdraw from entertainment world,”

Oppa, now we’ve understand that this way is the happiest way…

Five people, three people or even alone… From past until now, H.O.T remains undefeatable.

But we’ve forgotten that the separation hurts every of them…

How it feels being betrayed by the loved ones, how it feels not being able to explain a thing when you’ve been blamed on, being put aside, being looked down by others… How does it feel?

6 years, it’s been 6 years… Ever since then, we’ve lost everything… No one has been able to helps us to speak up, so everyone thinks that we can be bullied. So, they keep doing the bad things and giving the responsibilities to us… So, they dare to shout at us, again and again…

It’s hurting… it’s exhausting… but, because we are H.O.T’s fans, we have to be brave; because we are H.O.T’s fans, we cannot lose to others; because we are H.O.T’s fans, so we cannot lose hopes… Just cry out loud when we feel exhausted, then dry up your tears and stand up once again…

We are not blinded, we are not insane, and we are merely just being touched by the innocence and kindness of the five guys. So, we would be together as one forever… "

credit : cwwan
translation: utte86@dedicatedtohot02.cjb.net

CHUNSAS YONGWONHI!