I get so tired of this everlasting discussion...

I'm really tired now... My bff keep having her mood-turns or how to say... Then she also keeps complaining about how stupid she is, how depressed she is and so on..
Oh yeah? What the hell do you think I'VE been?! And how I feel now?!
I'm so sick of hearing that I'm "against" her, that I'm "sour" all the time, that I'm that and that and that... Who the hell have been teaching her everything, for SEVEN GOT DAMN YEARS?! Why can't people be thankful and accept ME for the one I am?!
And I've done everything I can to help her with the "depressment" or whatever, but she just keeps getting angry at me! Not angry literally, but sulky!

I'm not a fucking wizard, I can't make magic with my bare hands!
Stop complaining and got damn do something about it!
Then she also said she wanted to smash her head apart and I told her she should be happy that she's healthy.
"I'm depressed, then I'm not healthy". [The healthy I menat=Not having any disease]

Quote; "Loose screws have rather the one that can't realize, that every disease can strike anyone, anytime."

Sure, life can be though and rough, belive me, I know, but you shouldn't give up for that! I've been through the tv-show kind of relationships with the tv-show kind of endings, I've been victimzed, I've had it hard with school and all that shit. I've been got damn suicidal!
But did I give up for that?
NO.

I'm still here. Thanks to my horse, my friends and muisicans and one actor, Sung Kang, I'm still here. If Sung Kang hadn't said those two lines the way he did in TFATF; Tokyo Drift...
"Life's simple; You make choices and you don't look back."


That's the main thing I follow in my life.



Moon Heejun's new song; Obsession.

I GOT IN!

I GOT IN!!!
The school, programme and courses I wanted... I GOT IT!!! Also it was only 15 people who had searched for this programme, so we'll probably become a very small class too ^^,
I've never been in a small class... 25 people from 1st grade to 6th, 28 from 7th grade to 9th... There have never been a single quiet moment...

I also got my german homework-test back. 27/28... Pretty good xD
We also did a review on the old movie classic 'The Outsiders'. I can't belive it... Mine was one A4 page... And I got "Excellent, MVG" (highest grade) on it! I had done ONE single fault... ONE!!! Instead of writing just "come" I had written "comeS". That was the only fault on the whole of it...
I'm so proud ^^,

This is a very good day for me... One of the few.

This weekend was really bad... I had headache for three days and nothing helped neither... I also had to study to a chemistry test. Yay... I had the test today and I can't say it went good... It went really bad... And I wanted to keep my grade in chemistry... Bye bye to that~~

However, now I'm gonna go and read 'Conan' 8 manga... Mwahhahaha, I really love Conan! It's the only manga/book who've managed to scare me... Not even my friends can scare me xD

Have a nice day!

People always asks me; "How can you listen to these guys?
They look so ugly!"
You really wanna know why?

'Cuz they're UNIQUE.
DIFFERENT.

"Hey, look, you are drawing an obvious end
Dont try to pretend that you dont know anything now
Dont fall into it because you'll just become like everyone else
Why are you following them?"

"Ignoring the captured butterfly's desperate plea
You glare at the sky
"I didn't hurt because I hated,
I didn't have wings
And the sky was too high
You should use my wings, SPIDER
You don't know the pain of endless flight
And maybe you'll realize one day,
That you were only flying in the palms of someone else
And even dared to call that freedom."

"Your kind and gentle words can't heal me now"

"Endless rain, fall on my heart, on my heart's scar
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness"

"Do you remember The day we first met
The time we dreamed the same dream

Once again I ask
the reason of life
the reason of living
To the endlessly vast sky

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you
An endless poem of love To you

Even though I can't see you anymore
Your memory will live in my heart
Forever
As well as love does
So I won't say.... Good bye"

"The same old days, to a past you can't go back to
The dreams you're always chasing,
to the tomorrow right before your eyes
A firmly standing me, to a smiling you
Without hesitating, Together..."

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All these wonderful people who have written these songs, are on the picture above.
This is the reason I can't live without them.
'Cuz they're not stupid and
I don't give a damn about looks!
They're all genius'
Even though, a genius is not the answer to all questions
It's the question to all answers...

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Band/Singer - Song - Writer
The Trax - Are You Ready? - Rosebeetz (Rose)
Gackt - Redemption - ...
hide - Pink Spider - hide
X Japan - Endless Rain - Yoshiki
Yoshiki/X Japan - Without You - Yoshiki
Miyavi - Ashita, Genki ni Naare - ...

Two parts

I only have two main interests. Horses and music.
That have always been my number one interests, ever since I was a child...

When other children in my age watched tv shows for kids, I at the age of four-five, watched MTV. The first channel I remember watching, is MTV. So of course I can a lot about music artists, of course I have easy to remember and hearing voices, of course I love music even though I don't play any instruments or sing!

Horses have always given me the freedom that I can't reach in any other way... They have carried me over fields, rivers and mountains, they have nuzzled my hair when I've been down and raced with me when I wanted to feel alive.

I simply can't live without these two... So why can't everyone just accept that? Why can't they just live with that the things I talk about, is horses and music? Respect the emotions and the pride I feel, when I get to talk about these two?

Why?