Quizzes

Since I haven't done very much, except for horseback riding and being astonished over a guys' height from yesterday, I've been doing some quizzes...

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way. You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to. Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are 76% Good

You are a good person. You do the best you can to be ethical, fair, and moral. And as you know, being a good person means making hard decisions... and following them through. If you're confronted with an ethical dilemma, you will usually do the right thing. Of course you do slip up. No one's perfect. But you do your best to correct your missteps. You are also probably: incredibly honest, especially with yourself (oh yes I am...) Right now you are on track to being: A respected leader To be a better person: Be kind to someone who is not very kind to you

How Good Are You?

Go behind ones' back.

I'm so tired of it.

One of my three best friends are going to SouthKorea; and she haven't told us.
Me and one of the four of us got to know it today, through another friend that we've started to be with.
Sure, I'm happy for her sake, going there and all, I'm even a bit jealous. But the thing that makes me mad is the way she did it... She's gonna go and fix passport tomorrow and all.. So we asked her today why she hadn't told us, and what do we get?
"But I didn't now when we're gonna go"
What the hell do I care?! If she's gonna go and tells it to a person that isn't even one of her closest friends, why don't she tell us?! Am I so freakin' scary or have I done something wrong?

Okay, I'm flippin' out here.... Freakin' out... Probably I'm pretty much over-reacting, but still... It really feels like she've gone behind our backs... We took care of her when she was alone and introduced her to everything that has to do with this music... I've helped her with so much and the two others too... I'm trying to call her everytime we're gonna do something and try to do things, and this is what I get? What we get?

I really wonder what we've done so wrong she doesn't tell us such things. 'Cuz if she doesn't even tell us about travels, then what else doesn't she tell us? Are we untrustable in any way? 'Cuz if there's something I want my friends to know, it's that they can trust me... I don't just say anyone is my friends, since I only have one type of friends... Other people is just people I know or classmates and so on... Not friends.
A friend for me is someone that I can trust and that I could sacrifice myself for.
That's why I choose my friends.

Teaching

For every single episode of Gokusen that I watch, I learn something new. It's an incredibly great drama, both the first and the second... I only got four episodes left now, then I'm gonna head for the third ^^

But there was one thing that I really can relate to, when thinking of a friend... That someone who has a weak will but is kind, can turn its' kindness into strength.

I find that really helpful right now, 'cuz it's soon time to get the papers and see what school we're getting into... And I'm worried.. Not for myself, 'cuz I know I'll always be alright somehow...
But for a friend... Her words worries me...

I don't care anymore

Teenage drama it's called.
Tess was happy yesterday and half this day, but now she started again, so I simply stopped talking to her.
I get tired of this...


I just get more and more amazed by KAT-TUN's Ueda Tatsuya... His live's are so beautiful and his very mystical to me... And if there's something I always do, it's to try to understand others, see how their personalities are (at least as much as possible, when it's through internet...) and so... Figuring out people...

No, now I got to go out. I can't be inside anymore... Been inside for 3 hours... Needs to get outside...

Childish

I really can't understand this...
My bff is very childish, she WANTS to have verbal fights... And then tells me it's her personality.. Not really -.-''

Todays two "subjects".
1. SNSD. She likes SNSD. I don't listen to them. This morning I read a news article on Asian Fanatics about what disrespectful things some of SNSD girls had said about many other artists, including my favs' Tablo from Epik High, Super Junior, Dong Bang Shin Ki and SS501.
She asked me through chat why I hadn't gone yet (I was to go and shop a little, but I had no ride yet) so I told her I read an article about some "mistakes" SNSD had done against other artists.
Instantly she started saying "Why? You don't even like them". So I told her, that it stood they had insulted some of my favs', so she started protecting SNSD and saying they were fans of Tablo and Epik High. I sent the link, told her to read and judge herself, I was only reading it.
Then she didn't have time and I thought I would end it with saying "That's just what I read".
And what does she say then? "You just want me to hate them too"

WTF?! I just read the got damn article! I have nothing against SNSD, I just saw it had my favs' in it and read it! As if I would read an article and send it to my BFF so that she would start hating them?! NEVER.
But the thing that hurts me the most, is that SHE of all belives that! SHE that have known me for the longest time and the most of every single person on this got damn earth!

Sugject nr. 2: Arashi's Happiness live performance on their summer tour.
I thought Arashi boys did a good work, running so much and still sounding as good as the did (I hadn't expected that from them, I had recently started listening to Arashi). Happiness live perf.
Then she asked me "You know what? Remember you talked about Arashi, running around at that stage? Well you should see DBSK on their Five in black concert".
What the hell does she think about me?! I KNOW DBSK are good, you don't even need to say it, everyone knows, even anti-fans! (though they don't want to admit it)

It's all so childish, like kindergarten level -.-''


Sorry for writing this, but it's my way to handle it... I need to write about my problems and since no one really reads this, I can just write it. It's just my way... I'm the kind that keeps' it all inside and don't tell others. Don't tell me I should, 'cuz I won't.

Tekinasai fukanou mo nashi, Tobasu ne moeagare honnou

"No rivals no impossibilities, I'm gonna take fight, blazing higher with my instincts."

At the 11th June 2008 I ended 9th grade of the Swedish School.
At first I felt empty. I have gone at that school for 6 years + I went there once a week in third grade. Now I'm never gonna go back there again...
But it feels so great. I've had a really hard time there... It have been the six longest years of my life, especially the last three years. I'm glad I had my three best and only real friends back then, and my horse. Otherwise I wouldn't have been here today...
I'm not satisfied with my grades. My art teacher gave me a lower grade even though I had had the highest grade on every single piece of art that I made in this and last year.
I didn't get my MVG in swedish and german even though I had done everything she said I had to do to get it. I put my soul into the work and got good on it; still not MVG.
But I'm really proud over my two MVG's in english and geography. English I knew, but geography... BG (teacher) didn't even give my friend an MVG in any of his subjects (geography, history, religion) even though she had really good on every single test... So I'm really proud, 'cuz she had highest grade in almost everything! I didn't at all expect it, so I'm really happy... ^^

I'm also relived that I won't have to go at the same school as two persons that I hate the most and that have been victimized me and nearly succeded with their goal..
But I'm gonna miss my friends. Four Pieces, HWAITING!
M is going to a guidance line/course for secondary education...
T is going for the trading buisness.
C is gonna make her dream come true and go the esthete course and then go to Paris to become a artist and later an art teacher.

Me? I'm gonna go to a special language line/course and read both german and chinese. Probably many other languages too. I don't really know what I want to be except for a writer... But there's one dream I have... And that's to be able to talk 7/seven different languages before I turn 40 years old. Not a very big dream, but still a dream. I want to be able to have contact with many different people. Maybe its' a dream to become something like J.R.R Tolkien... He was an exeptional writer and a language professor... That's something I could be ^^

However, life goes on and now it's summer vacation. This summer I will just ride and be with friends, taking it easy and live the life as much as possible before the hard work starts again.

Finally finished.

Ah this friday I had my last exam/test. It was history and I hope I get a VG so that I'll keep having that grade in the subject and on the papers...
However, I got a day off tomorrow and on friday it's Sweden's national day, so we don't have to go to school then. And next week on wednesday, 11th June, school's ending :D Finally I'm getting out of that school... I've been going there for 6 years and it's very nice to get to something else than those walls.

Right now I'm getting pics from a friend. We took them today and it was really fun ^^
Also I'm reading Yoshiki (X Japan)'s blog entries... It's really funny to read xD

"The day before yesterday, in the airplane on the way to Japan, I had a really weird dream….. I almost….. Well, I think I screamed!! The flight attendant came to me and said "Are you OK? ....." Then I said "THE RICE MONSTER IS TRYING TO EAT ME!!!"….. And she said……. "WHAT????" and I said……mmmm……ah……. "Never mind……ah….. Could I have a glass of Champagne and Caviar please?"

"Regarding the S.K.I.N. show and JAPAN EXPO in Paris; I'll post them separately….. Damn I spilled the water again. I must still be jetlagged AH----!"
"But the funny part was….. The trailer for my dressing room and the place where we shot the photos were pretty far apart.

So I had to walk back and forth, on a pretty busy street, in downtown L.A.

With scars, and clothes with a lot of blood….. People were freaking out…... and in the evening there was a car accident in between those 2 locations….. then I walked in with my body covered in blood….. police officers were staring at me….. and …................. well, I just smiled!!"

This was really cute and nice ^^;
"I just have to tell you something. ...Last night after the recording, I drove by the Wiltern Theater (LA). I saw several cool looking people camping outside the venue.
It was probably around midnight….I wondered "Who's performing tomorrow?"
I then called one of my assistants to find out the schedule of the venue….. He said "Only the JRock festival is happening this week at that venue." …… Then I said "Are you serious? Are they camping out for our concert?"…..
It was already late, but I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about them…….. So..... around 3 A.M. I drove up to the venue, and brought several coffees and hot chocolates to them….. "

Yoshiki-sama can be so random, but he's so nice too~~ <3 Wish he would take it a little easier just, he's stressing too much... Even though I don't belive in god, I'll pray for Yoshiki-sama's health! <3

Today I first was in the stables for a few hours. Me, Jossan and Emelie rode out and went to the river. It was fun and after that we went to a place called "Dungen" ("the holt") where we jumped four obstacles (trees) and then to a paddock where we jumped a little more. All of us rode without saddles, but Xet (my horse) jumped up in the air several times and also dragged his head downwards, to the ground, and then like hogged/humped 5 times in a row... But I didn't fall off! =P Beat that if you can xD
Then when we were home again and the horses was out in the stables, we started a water war. It ended with Emelie being just a little wet, Jossan having a 1/6 bucket of water on her shirt and me 4/6 bucket of water on my front xD But it didn't take long before it dried since we got +30c now... Very unusual up here in the north and at this time of the year. Very hot ...
I don't know what to think about it... I don't like cold nor warmth either...

After that I was with Tess and Camilla. We went out, photographing a bit. Tess is sending me the pics right now. Haven't gotten to the ones' that was funny... Like when Camilla and I sat in some trees... Or when we climbed up on a soccer goal... or our school's roof... But the soccer goal was the best xD
So we do random things... Sit down in the middle of the road, climbing up on soccer goals, have weird conversations... You name it.

But the most important thing; we have fun! That's all that matters! :D

Have a nice day!