Like always

Why do I get depressed when talking to IRL friends?
They're just plain boring. First they say they want to do something, then they're too "tired" to do something (two days ahead) and then they say we never do anything together... Why is it always me who tries and tries to get us together to do something? Why?
Then they say I never want to do something... Oh geez now I'm writing this shit again... Sorry...

But the thing is that always when they're tired we can't get together and do something.
When they're depressed, I'm the one who has to take care of them and all.
BUT, when I'm tired, then I'm "pissed off" and "bitchy".
When I'm depressed, no one even notices...
When I feel like breaking down and cry, who's there for me?
No one, since they don't even see it.

Really nice.


I get depressed on the autumn since it's always much to do and we always have so much homework and stuff... We got so much that I don't even have time to dream... I can't live without my dreams...