Crows Zero and Tokyo Ghost Trip

Today was a busy day... I went with my mother, sister and sisters-son to the city today. We bought winter-shoes for the little one and some stuff for me to the stables. I came home at 1.40 p.m and then went to the stables.
Xet and I climbed up on the mountain today and then down again. I didn't think very much, just let him be and let him concentrate on the climbing while I was enjoying the silence and the air. It smelled a lot of fir-tree actually... I love that smell, reminds me of christmas ^^

When I came home I watched "Crows Zero". Awesome movie ^^ For the first time I wasn't able to choose which side I was on... Serizawa or Genji.
I liked both of them... Genji, of course, the main character with a goal and everything. But Serizawa, I felt for him too under the movie. His best friend or partner couldn't come to the one fight and the three other companions did a stupid thing... But in the end, it was a good fight, a good movie and great actors! Oguri Shun and Takayuki Yamada were really awesome! I really like these kinds of movies ^^

After that I looked around and I watched one episode of "Tokyo Ghost Trip". I like the main 3 characters, played by Juri, Yagami Ren and Kiriyama Renn. I'm probably gonna watch some more episodes and I hope it turns out better. Truly, the first episode was very short and I really want to see more of the characters. ^^

Have a nice day!

Frank Castle was right.

Thomas Jane played the main character Frank Castle in the movie "The Punisher". In it, he had a line, saying; "Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response."
He's right. And revenge is wrong.


Ah, it was a while since I updated this blog. It's soon November already... I've been having a swedish blog, but since no one read it or commented, I'm gonna remove it soon. Also, I wont be active anymore on the swedish picture-dairy-blog thingy I was a member of. I've had enough of that fucked up community...
This is more fun ^^ I write and write and nobody reads, so I can write pretty much what I want and nobody cares xD But I have to make a new layout now... I've had this one for so long...



Now we're having an autumn-break and it's very well needed... I'm so tired and I'm going take it easy and just have fun this break. I'm gonna try to not loose temper against Tess any more, 'cus she's actually the best friend I have... Heh, realized that already -_-'' *sarcastic against self*

But today Tess is going to go with me to the stables and we're going to take the camera with us and photograph. Probably we'll do something afterwards too ^^
Gotta go now

Have a nice day! ^^

The moon opposite to Uranus

Astrology in Depth;
"The Moon in a 180 degree opposition angle to Uranus is an extremely restless, sociable and confused influence in the personality, reflecting unresolved impossible desires within the personality.

In the personality
It reflects complex rebellious emotionalities and needing to do one's own thing, but fearing to embrace this wholly and so resolving to do so more indirectly. It is fundamentally a selfish influence in the personality, reflective of unkindness most natives experience and unwillingly soak up in their early years. Nevertheless, there is a fear of the unknown and a shirking from breaking apart with close people, even though the urge can be strong. They often want to change people, but do not know how to convince them to do it and instead may try to make a scene.
It makes the person hold on to strong, often unbalanced emotional convictions and have a difficult time compromising, especially on a personal level. Childhood is often ripe with similar unwillingness to compromise or listen.
There are often unresolved issues with rejection with this aspect, which establish a fear of emotional expression and attachment. The aspect often strengthen the emotions by giving them an icy gloss. They are able to stay cool and function in difficult emotional circumstances. They can be coldly calculated. It has difficulty trusting others with their emotions. "

This is REALLY scary. I've recently started to learn astrology and natal charts and everything, but this is really scary... First of all, the first sentence, rebellious emotions but in the end "to do so more indirectly". That's me in a nutshell.
Second, "shirking from breaking apart with close people". YES.
Third, "they often want to change people ...". Yes I want to help people change, and yes, I don't know how to convince them...
Fourth, "Childhood is often ripe with similar unwillingness to compromise or listen." When I was younger, I never listened to my teachers and I fighted with them all the time...
Fifth, "It has difficulty trusting others with their emotions." I just, simply, don't.

Scary O_O

Bishies~

Fari introduced a new word for me today; Bishies. BJD, Ball joint dolls.
I hadn't heard that before but I knew when I saw the pictures. So beautiful~ I really like this one, Hayden.
This one, Adrian.

Well, this week have indeed been hard... At wednesday we had this outdoor recreation day.. We had to walk/run 7 km, around and up a mountain... Then me and two of my friends had to walk 2,5 km, up some hillsides, just to get to the place we were supposed to start by... It didn't get better when we had to walk on narrow paths and sometimes not even paths but just tons and lots of stones... I like being outside and walk, but not like that. I've had a problem with my calf (sounds weird to me, the word...)
Yesterday we had to climb a mountain AGAIN, though not as far... But it felt like it was twice as hard as wednesday -_-'' We were going to compare different kinds of forests on the scienes. I'm glad we were allowed to have things to eat and drink with us ^^
And then today.. We had gymnastics. Run five times around the court and then basketball. My leg was hurting like **** and afterwards I was going to the stables and ride Xet. Thank god I don't have to walk with him ^^ <3

Tomorrow we're going for a autumn rally for old yankee cars. It was last year too, and it was really fun ^^ Josse is going with us too :D

On sunday we're going to celebrate grandma.

I have to study mandarin too, we're having a test on tuesday... Gotta go now ^^
Have a nice day!

24 Sep.

If my friends doesn't belive me, who does?

Chat's and thought's

Me and Camilla had this discussion today... I had a pic of Ueda Tatsuya that I showed to her. He held a watermelon above his head and had the world's cutest smile upon his beautiful face.
C: Hahahah, melon's are tasty ^^
E: Why just the melon? I'll take Ueda, then I get both him and the melon. HAH! *evul mode on*
C: But, you muppet..! At least give me the melon!
E: NO! MY MELON!
C: But give me the melon shorty!
E: NO WAY IN HELL! YOU WON'T EVEN GET TO TASTE WHEN YOU CALL ME SHORTY!
C: YOU LITTLE MIDGET!!!EAT YOUR MELON AND GROW TALLER THEN!!!!
E: SCREW YOU! EAT YOUR BUTT!

Then I talked to Fari and we talked about how I was going to find a picture of Ueda, boxing, which I know I have somewhere but can't find...
E: But I'll search for a pic where he's boxing
F: Yay ^^
E: I FOUND IT! But I have to go through many pics before I can save it -_-' Stupid site.
F: ;_;
E: And there the site locked...
F: Auu auu ;___;
E: I WILL get that pic no matter what!
F: X''D And that's the words of an determinded fan-girl!!
E: X'''''D

So I've been pretty weird tonight.


Mum is mad at me. I just said I wanted a new jacket to have in the stable's.. Just because her coffee was too hot she got mad and started yelling at me -_-'' And now she's really mad at me.
Hey, I didn't make the coffee..! FFS! I guess that's life...
At least I have my dreamworld to go to.... I want to write a fanfic, and I will, I just don't know what it'll be about... 'Cuz first I wanted to write one starring Akanishi Jin as a teacher, Kamenashi Kazuya as a student in a 3D class (together with my main character) and Tanaka Koki as a student in 3B who should've been in 3D. But...
Now I've gotten totally into Ueda... xD And I'm a bit tired of writing high-school fanfic's now. I've just finished one, and I want to write one named "Psychommunity", but I just don't know what it's gonna be about... Except for that it's gonna be a comedy with lots of pyscho thingys.
Then I also have this idea of a 3-way-relationship-fanfic... I've had it in my head for a while, but I'm not sure if I dare to write it. I think my friend's would get scared xD No but.. It's very complicated writing and if anyone except for my friend's get to read it without my knowing... That would be a total disaster.

I just thought of putting it all together; highschool-fanfic+Pyschommunity+3-way-relationship.
No. That ain't gonna work...

Oh well, I'll come up with something at the end.

TVXQ - Mirotic

DAMN! TVXQ are the best boyband, that's just it. They're so GREAT! AWESOME! SUGOI!
Their new single "Mirotic" is awesome! I already know the chorus xD That's like.. A personal record in learning a song for me xD Except for Trax's "Resolution". But I love the lyrics for this song. TVXQ totally know their fans xD
"Neon nareul wonhae
Neon naege ppajyeo
Neon naege michyeo
Neon naui no ye
I got you~ under my skin"

"You want me
You've fallen for me
You're crazy for me
You're my slave
I got you~ under my skin"

They know we all want them, they know we've fallen flat on our nose's for them, they totally know we're crazy for them and they know we ALL want to be their slave's! X'''D




However, I'm going to the cinema tonight. Don't know what we're gonna see, but we'll probably end up with something... Haha xD

Random;
Currently writing: -No tite- (starring KAT-TUN)
Reading: Grass for his pillow - Lian Hearn
Talking to: Josse, Vanessa & Tesse
Tv shows: So You Think You Can Dance
Mood: Tired but happy and obsessed
Manga: One Piece 44, God Child 7, Shaman King 7
Listening to: TVXQ - Mirotic

Like always

Why do I get depressed when talking to IRL friends?
They're just plain boring. First they say they want to do something, then they're too "tired" to do something (two days ahead) and then they say we never do anything together... Why is it always me who tries and tries to get us together to do something? Why?
Then they say I never want to do something... Oh geez now I'm writing this shit again... Sorry...

But the thing is that always when they're tired we can't get together and do something.
When they're depressed, I'm the one who has to take care of them and all.
BUT, when I'm tired, then I'm "pissed off" and "bitchy".
When I'm depressed, no one even notices...
When I feel like breaking down and cry, who's there for me?
No one, since they don't even see it.

Really nice.


I get depressed on the autumn since it's always much to do and we always have so much homework and stuff... We got so much that I don't even have time to dream... I can't live without my dreams...

Friday~~

I had two lesson's today; Sciences and Gymnastics.

The science teacher was fun today too... He showed us a clip with Donald Duck on the beach xD Then he said he didn't want us to study on the weekend's, he wanted us to rest and come back to school with much energy instead!
He's my fav teacher from now on xD

I rode Xet today. He was so spirited and I think he was really happy too... He even came to me when I shouted for him to come ^^ He doesn't do that very often, he think's I should go half the way... Then he can come... xD
But afterwards when I was going to stretch his left front leg... I had a hold around his leg and my other hand under his hoof. Then he, as lazy as he is, leaned forward with his weight and put the hoof down (still straight leg). But... My hand was still under his hoof ^^''' Luckily there was plenty of splint so it didn't hurt and he didn't put all his weight down.
I was more shocked... "But, you're standing on my hand. Hey Xet, move!" xD
(I'm not hurt at all)

I've started to listen to SuG. I really like their music ^^ My fav songs are "Cherish" and "Love scream party".

Gonna go now, a tv-show is starting in 2 minutes...

Have a nice weekend!

Haengbok~~

I'm so happy. My new class is AWESOME and my new teacher's too ^^
They do actually CARE about us student's on this school!

Our sciences teacher and our chinese teacher are my favourites ^^
My chinese teacher is very nice and she's adorable. We got our book's today, they look really nice. There's two cd's to it too, so now maybe I can learn how to pronouce correctly xD

Our sciences teacher is weird, funny and a bit clumsy... He told us about an accident that happend a year ago...
He was jumping for a thingy that hangs up in the roof (they can show pictures and slideshows on them, can't remember name) and when he landed, he landed on his toe's and broke them. But he didn't want to show it to the class, so he held the whole lesson, getting just paler and paler... But he made it and then went to hospital... It sounds horrible and probably was, but when he told us it was very funny and he seemed to think so too xD
And he have said and written and drawn wrong and weird things on the board, and he have done silly sound-effect's and today he had this table on wheels with a tv on it and he was pushing it through the room and BAM! Into another table and my friend's chair xD He did some sound-effect again and then said, in a very light tenor voice; "Oops! It wasn't me!" and then he run off with the tv!
X'''''D!!

Our math's teacher is nice, but he talk's alot. A L O T ! ! ! He talk's so much that my classmate's (and me) start's with the math even if he's not done... I guess that say's everything...
Then we have our civics and history teacher. He's so... slack. He forget's things and he's random. Last week, he dragged my arm and said "Hey, we should sing a song! Emma, you said you wanted to sing a song!" xD
Yesterday he poked my friend xD

It's really fun to be in school for the first time on 6 year's ^^

Have a nice day, I got chinese to do ^^

Second week of school

I've had pretty fun today. I had my first chinese lesson, so my head is full of chinese characters now xD
It was really fun, trying to pronouce everything xD Like "wo shi" and "ni shi shui" and four different kinds of "má"... It's really hard, I'm so used "tough/hard" languages like swedish and german and chinese is soooo different! I'm gonna train a little at the writing when I'm finished with this entry.

We also got some homework on the english today which I'm almost finished with. And we have to do an analysis on the civics which I don't even know how to do... So I tried mailing a classmate through the school's web system thingy, but he haven't answered... Just my luck.
Also I have the chinese papers of course... I'm nagging about this, sorry! xD

I'm so tired right now... My english letter became so long... And I still have the chinese to do.. I don't really have anything to say, I just wanted to write in my blog xD

I've deleted all the songs, except for H.O.T and hide's Rocket Dive on my mp3, and I'm trying to fill it again. It's hard...

Have a nice day ^^

Random;
Currently writing: Editing "With duckt tape"
Reading: Grass for his pillow - Lian Hearn
Talking to: Josse, Malin and Vanessa
Tv shows: So You Think You Can Dance
Mood: Tired
Manga: One Piece 43, God Child 6, Shaman King 7
Listening to: DuelJewel - Kuramaku

Random

Random;
Currently writing: Editing "With duckt tape"
Reading: Grass for his pillow - Lian Hearn
Talking to: Venus
Tv shows: So You Think You Can Dance
Mood: Dreamy and tired
Manga: One Piece 43, God Child 6, Shaman King 7
Listening to: DuelJewel - Inochi no Kagayaki

Just a funny list I do once in a while... You put on music randomly and the first who sings on the next song is...;


Your friend
Han Geng (Super Junior) :D

BFF (Best friend forever)
Tony An (ex H.O.T) YES!!!

Your crush
Brian (FTTS) He's cute ^^

Your teacher
Xiah Junsu (DBSK) ...How will this end?

The one that's teasing you on the breaks
Gackt (ex Malice Mizer) O_O

The busdriver
Tony An (ex H.O.T) :D

Your lover
Son Hoyoung (ex G.O.D) YAY! :D

The person that cheated on you
Hayato (DuelJewel) NOO!!! WHY?!

Your idol
Haderu (Jealkb) Yes he is ^^

Your God/Godess
Taeyang (Big Bang) O_ô

The popular brat
Kangta (ex H.O.T) Um... I belive he's nice underneath in that case :P

The teachers pet
Kim Seheon (EVE) I can't belive this! xD

The one that always comforts you
Ookawa Genki (Tenimyu Cast) YES! He's so cute ^^

The person that secretly has a crush on you
Jongwan (Nell) Naww ^^

Your stalker
Moon Heejun (ex H.O.T) WOW, YES! =D

The person that you're jealous on
Kim Seheon (EVE) ...well, kind of...

The one that's planning on killing you
Kim Kyungho - OH NO!! But... but... I really like him, the mest korean rock singer *_*

The one that will save your life
Gackt (ex Malice Mizer) YAY!

The scarecrow
G-Dragon (Big Bang) O_o

Someone your going to meet in the future
G-Dragon (Big Bang) YAY!!!!

Your destiny
Kangta (ex H.O.T)
HOMG! How will that work... Poor Kangta, getting me... I AM worried...

Long time no see~~

I've had so much to do... I can remember this summer break with a smile ^^

Now school have started and we've had our first week already, and for the first time, I'm not nervous about beginning again tomorrow... My class is so small! We're 11 students =O
But I like it... I've never been in such a small class.. I've never had a class that was beneth 20 persons, and my last class was 28 and a hell...
Everyone is really nice people in this class... On the lunch on friday, we went down to the mall and the market place all together and it ended with me, N, J and E; sitting in a sulky and getting a "ride" around the big fountain xD
It was the craziest thing I've ever done with a class... And it was really fun ^^

One of my earlier friends is also in the class and everything is well with her. Though, I haven't heard a word from one of my other friends, the second is not happy with her class at all and the third I think is happy but she miss' us.. So probably we're gonna do something together tomorrow after school, all five of us. Hopefully...

For once, I've finished a fanfic. FINISHED. F-I-N-I-S-H-E-D.
I can't belive it myself.. It's easier to ask me how many I have written and finished, than asking me how many I've begun to write and haven't finished...
This one is named "With Duct Tape". Yup.
It's like a one-shot, but it's a bit long though... The two main males are Matsumoto Jun and Akanishi Jin. Then it's two none-famous females', Tatsuya Youngsoo and Sakurai Hidari. Other characters in the story are my own characters Fumiko Yei, Narusegwa Naru and Kamashi Yumiko; Tatsuya Ueda and Sakurai Sho are also in in it. There's once I wrote the name "Shun" and that is Oguri Shun, yes. I'll probably upload it. Well that's at least my goal with this fic ^^

Also I'm currently working on a new layout for the blog. I think it's gonna be hot j-pop and j actors on it... That'll say Akanishi Jin and Oguri Shun xD I at least think so. We'll see, I always change my mind in the middle of it...

Short

Gonna start writing again, just gotta fix a new layout. But that's for some other day...
Sry for the short reply, I just have things to do at the moment :P

Have a nice day!

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle

		I will marry Ohno.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Tokyo, Japan in our fabulous House.
		We will have 4 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Silver Cadillac Biarritz.
		I will spend my days as a Dancer, and live happily ever after.

CCW preparations

Well today I've done many things... I'm so tired I don't even remember what I did yesterday...
Today I first helped dad with our new mailbox.. It was some modications who had to be done. Then we fixed with stones around the garage and such. My sister + family came on visit so then we sat there for a while. After dinner dad and I went to his job to fix the motor mounts on our old Pontiac.
When we did that, we saw that both motor mounts were in two parts... They were probably never changed and had broke apart :S We had very much luck this time, 'cuz on the vacation we'll only be driving that car so... You don't really want to drop the engine in the middle of it -_-''

I don't quite remember what I did yesterday... Oh yes, I cleaned my room... I... I helped dad with the hedge and then we went to throw away the parts of it that we had cut off... (I'm bad at explaining. Especially when my brain's on vacation -_-'')
That's all I remember...

I really hate it when I can't remember what I did the day before.. Sometimes I get memory gaps... It's either when I'm stressed out or something else. I'm not stressed so I don't know... I just don't remember.

Not much

Okay I haven't done much this weekend. I wanted to be with J, but she have been busy.
Now I have deleted a whole lot of pictures from my computer... 23 March, I hade over 16.000 pictures... Now after deleting a whole lot, I have... 20.799.... -_-

Well, at least more than half of it is pictures I've taken... Then the other half is mostly of my fav artists... They need some place too you know :P

Now I'm gonna see if I have some fantasy and can do something on photoshop. Beloved photoshop <3

Have a nice day!

What musical instrument should you play?

You Should Play the Guitar

You're very independent - both in spirit and in the way you learn. You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed. You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson - or do things by the book. It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you. Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play. You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star. Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Mayfly is a Problem Solver~~

Man I feel horrible...

The guy we met yesterday, codename; HIM.
I solved the puzzle under the night and J and I got it confirmed, but now I just feel aweful for having right... Poor guy, he's really down... Really wish I could help him... That's my task in life...
Okay, sounding and feeling way to religious now.

But it's true... I'm here to listen and help others.
It's what my life is about.

Have you figured out your task?

Gatufesten

Today I have done two things; laid in my hammock, sleeping for 7 hours (outside).
Then I went to Tess and we went to the city, to the "Gatufest" (transl.; Cityfest/party).
There we met J and M and walked around with them. It wasn't any good artists so we mainly ran around, doing nothing. We did meet a guy that we call "HIM" but he wasn't very nice...

I've got burned by the sun xD I'm shining red like a cancer... xD
Ah don't got much to say... Gotta help J now...

Have a nice day!

Quizzes

Since I haven't done very much, except for horseback riding and being astonished over a guys' height from yesterday, I've been doing some quizzes...

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way. You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to. Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are 76% Good

You are a good person. You do the best you can to be ethical, fair, and moral. And as you know, being a good person means making hard decisions... and following them through. If you're confronted with an ethical dilemma, you will usually do the right thing. Of course you do slip up. No one's perfect. But you do your best to correct your missteps. You are also probably: incredibly honest, especially with yourself (oh yes I am...) Right now you are on track to being: A respected leader To be a better person: Be kind to someone who is not very kind to you

How Good Are You?

Go behind ones' back.

I'm so tired of it.

One of my three best friends are going to SouthKorea; and she haven't told us.
Me and one of the four of us got to know it today, through another friend that we've started to be with.
Sure, I'm happy for her sake, going there and all, I'm even a bit jealous. But the thing that makes me mad is the way she did it... She's gonna go and fix passport tomorrow and all.. So we asked her today why she hadn't told us, and what do we get?
"But I didn't now when we're gonna go"
What the hell do I care?! If she's gonna go and tells it to a person that isn't even one of her closest friends, why don't she tell us?! Am I so freakin' scary or have I done something wrong?

Okay, I'm flippin' out here.... Freakin' out... Probably I'm pretty much over-reacting, but still... It really feels like she've gone behind our backs... We took care of her when she was alone and introduced her to everything that has to do with this music... I've helped her with so much and the two others too... I'm trying to call her everytime we're gonna do something and try to do things, and this is what I get? What we get?

I really wonder what we've done so wrong she doesn't tell us such things. 'Cuz if she doesn't even tell us about travels, then what else doesn't she tell us? Are we untrustable in any way? 'Cuz if there's something I want my friends to know, it's that they can trust me... I don't just say anyone is my friends, since I only have one type of friends... Other people is just people I know or classmates and so on... Not friends.
A friend for me is someone that I can trust and that I could sacrifice myself for.
That's why I choose my friends.

Teaching

For every single episode of Gokusen that I watch, I learn something new. It's an incredibly great drama, both the first and the second... I only got four episodes left now, then I'm gonna head for the third ^^

But there was one thing that I really can relate to, when thinking of a friend... That someone who has a weak will but is kind, can turn its' kindness into strength.

I find that really helpful right now, 'cuz it's soon time to get the papers and see what school we're getting into... And I'm worried.. Not for myself, 'cuz I know I'll always be alright somehow...
But for a friend... Her words worries me...

I don't care anymore

Teenage drama it's called.
Tess was happy yesterday and half this day, but now she started again, so I simply stopped talking to her.
I get tired of this...


I just get more and more amazed by KAT-TUN's Ueda Tatsuya... His live's are so beautiful and his very mystical to me... And if there's something I always do, it's to try to understand others, see how their personalities are (at least as much as possible, when it's through internet...) and so... Figuring out people...

No, now I got to go out. I can't be inside anymore... Been inside for 3 hours... Needs to get outside...

Childish

I really can't understand this...
My bff is very childish, she WANTS to have verbal fights... And then tells me it's her personality.. Not really -.-''

Todays two "subjects".
1. SNSD. She likes SNSD. I don't listen to them. This morning I read a news article on Asian Fanatics about what disrespectful things some of SNSD girls had said about many other artists, including my favs' Tablo from Epik High, Super Junior, Dong Bang Shin Ki and SS501.
She asked me through chat why I hadn't gone yet (I was to go and shop a little, but I had no ride yet) so I told her I read an article about some "mistakes" SNSD had done against other artists.
Instantly she started saying "Why? You don't even like them". So I told her, that it stood they had insulted some of my favs', so she started protecting SNSD and saying they were fans of Tablo and Epik High. I sent the link, told her to read and judge herself, I was only reading it.
Then she didn't have time and I thought I would end it with saying "That's just what I read".
And what does she say then? "You just want me to hate them too"

WTF?! I just read the got damn article! I have nothing against SNSD, I just saw it had my favs' in it and read it! As if I would read an article and send it to my BFF so that she would start hating them?! NEVER.
But the thing that hurts me the most, is that SHE of all belives that! SHE that have known me for the longest time and the most of every single person on this got damn earth!

Sugject nr. 2: Arashi's Happiness live performance on their summer tour.
I thought Arashi boys did a good work, running so much and still sounding as good as the did (I hadn't expected that from them, I had recently started listening to Arashi). Happiness live perf.
Then she asked me "You know what? Remember you talked about Arashi, running around at that stage? Well you should see DBSK on their Five in black concert".
What the hell does she think about me?! I KNOW DBSK are good, you don't even need to say it, everyone knows, even anti-fans! (though they don't want to admit it)

It's all so childish, like kindergarten level -.-''


Sorry for writing this, but it's my way to handle it... I need to write about my problems and since no one really reads this, I can just write it. It's just my way... I'm the kind that keeps' it all inside and don't tell others. Don't tell me I should, 'cuz I won't.

Tekinasai fukanou mo nashi, Tobasu ne moeagare honnou

"No rivals no impossibilities, I'm gonna take fight, blazing higher with my instincts."

At the 11th June 2008 I ended 9th grade of the Swedish School.
At first I felt empty. I have gone at that school for 6 years + I went there once a week in third grade. Now I'm never gonna go back there again...
But it feels so great. I've had a really hard time there... It have been the six longest years of my life, especially the last three years. I'm glad I had my three best and only real friends back then, and my horse. Otherwise I wouldn't have been here today...
I'm not satisfied with my grades. My art teacher gave me a lower grade even though I had had the highest grade on every single piece of art that I made in this and last year.
I didn't get my MVG in swedish and german even though I had done everything she said I had to do to get it. I put my soul into the work and got good on it; still not MVG.
But I'm really proud over my two MVG's in english and geography. English I knew, but geography... BG (teacher) didn't even give my friend an MVG in any of his subjects (geography, history, religion) even though she had really good on every single test... So I'm really proud, 'cuz she had highest grade in almost everything! I didn't at all expect it, so I'm really happy... ^^

I'm also relived that I won't have to go at the same school as two persons that I hate the most and that have been victimized me and nearly succeded with their goal..
But I'm gonna miss my friends. Four Pieces, HWAITING!
M is going to a guidance line/course for secondary education...
T is going for the trading buisness.
C is gonna make her dream come true and go the esthete course and then go to Paris to become a artist and later an art teacher.

Me? I'm gonna go to a special language line/course and read both german and chinese. Probably many other languages too. I don't really know what I want to be except for a writer... But there's one dream I have... And that's to be able to talk 7/seven different languages before I turn 40 years old. Not a very big dream, but still a dream. I want to be able to have contact with many different people. Maybe its' a dream to become something like J.R.R Tolkien... He was an exeptional writer and a language professor... That's something I could be ^^

However, life goes on and now it's summer vacation. This summer I will just ride and be with friends, taking it easy and live the life as much as possible before the hard work starts again.

Finally finished.

Ah this friday I had my last exam/test. It was history and I hope I get a VG so that I'll keep having that grade in the subject and on the papers...
However, I got a day off tomorrow and on friday it's Sweden's national day, so we don't have to go to school then. And next week on wednesday, 11th June, school's ending :D Finally I'm getting out of that school... I've been going there for 6 years and it's very nice to get to something else than those walls.

Right now I'm getting pics from a friend. We took them today and it was really fun ^^
Also I'm reading Yoshiki (X Japan)'s blog entries... It's really funny to read xD

"The day before yesterday, in the airplane on the way to Japan, I had a really weird dream….. I almost….. Well, I think I screamed!! The flight attendant came to me and said "Are you OK? ....." Then I said "THE RICE MONSTER IS TRYING TO EAT ME!!!"….. And she said……. "WHAT????" and I said……mmmm……ah……. "Never mind……ah….. Could I have a glass of Champagne and Caviar please?"

"Regarding the S.K.I.N. show and JAPAN EXPO in Paris; I'll post them separately….. Damn I spilled the water again. I must still be jetlagged AH----!"
"But the funny part was….. The trailer for my dressing room and the place where we shot the photos were pretty far apart.

So I had to walk back and forth, on a pretty busy street, in downtown L.A.

With scars, and clothes with a lot of blood….. People were freaking out…... and in the evening there was a car accident in between those 2 locations….. then I walked in with my body covered in blood….. police officers were staring at me….. and …................. well, I just smiled!!"

This was really cute and nice ^^;
"I just have to tell you something. ...Last night after the recording, I drove by the Wiltern Theater (LA). I saw several cool looking people camping outside the venue.
It was probably around midnight….I wondered "Who's performing tomorrow?"
I then called one of my assistants to find out the schedule of the venue….. He said "Only the JRock festival is happening this week at that venue." …… Then I said "Are you serious? Are they camping out for our concert?"…..
It was already late, but I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about them…….. So..... around 3 A.M. I drove up to the venue, and brought several coffees and hot chocolates to them….. "

Yoshiki-sama can be so random, but he's so nice too~~ <3 Wish he would take it a little easier just, he's stressing too much... Even though I don't belive in god, I'll pray for Yoshiki-sama's health! <3

Today I first was in the stables for a few hours. Me, Jossan and Emelie rode out and went to the river. It was fun and after that we went to a place called "Dungen" ("the holt") where we jumped four obstacles (trees) and then to a paddock where we jumped a little more. All of us rode without saddles, but Xet (my horse) jumped up in the air several times and also dragged his head downwards, to the ground, and then like hogged/humped 5 times in a row... But I didn't fall off! =P Beat that if you can xD
Then when we were home again and the horses was out in the stables, we started a water war. It ended with Emelie being just a little wet, Jossan having a 1/6 bucket of water on her shirt and me 4/6 bucket of water on my front xD But it didn't take long before it dried since we got +30c now... Very unusual up here in the north and at this time of the year. Very hot ...
I don't know what to think about it... I don't like cold nor warmth either...

After that I was with Tess and Camilla. We went out, photographing a bit. Tess is sending me the pics right now. Haven't gotten to the ones' that was funny... Like when Camilla and I sat in some trees... Or when we climbed up on a soccer goal... or our school's roof... But the soccer goal was the best xD
So we do random things... Sit down in the middle of the road, climbing up on soccer goals, have weird conversations... You name it.

But the most important thing; we have fun! That's all that matters! :D

Have a nice day!

This years' stress takes out its' right, as they say...

I noticed today how extrimingly tired I actually am... This year has been so stressful and I've had so much to do.. This saturday I even got some memory gaps' because I got so much in my head. It's very disturbing and I can't concentrate on anything when I get home, I just want to sleep and sleep until school ends and two weeks more...
"Luckily" I got my last tests this week. Music test on wednesday and a history test on friday. After that I can just do whatever....

I can't even write everything I thought of writing since it goes out of my head and something else pops' in... Gotta go and sleep or something...

Have a nice day!

What a free friday!

Today must've been the laziest friday I've ever had...
First we got to sleep pretty long since we didn't have to be at school at 8.20 as usual, but 9.00. Then Tess and I walked to a place called Huli and back. It took about one hour and then we had lunch until 12.30.
12.30 our art class started. It was we plus 10 more of the class... And the lesson was only about 20 minutes. After that we had maths... Up in the corridor, it was only me, Tess and Camilla (who had come a little later). We're in different math groups and my teacher is in the U.S to talk about some project we have... So I didn't have any teacher.
When their teacher came, she unlocked "my" classroom and then went to theirs. So, there I sat, all alone in a classroom with my feet on the desk, singing H.O.T's 'Candy'. I sat there all alone for about five minutes, then two guys from my class came. Then another one. Then Maja and 5 more girls. That was it.
It really felt like a japanese 3D class... The guys were writing on the whiteboard, opening a cabinet and took out some binoculars and looked out of the window... Three girls were sitting in the back and gossiping. Me and Maja were talking about her spanish test that she had today and the last girl was listening to her iPod.
After a while Maja went to get some books and when she came back, she told me that some others had said (when she was down in the corridor) that the ones that had done the test got to leave... So she left.
Me and the iPod girl started talking and when it was 20 minutes left of the lesson, we decided to write a list over the ones that was there (not even half the class) and then we told everyone that we should leave, which we did.
No one even thought of maths on the whole lesson... xD

However, later I went and rode Xet. We did tried out some methods that his owner had learned on a clinic for a few days ago. They worked REALLY well!!! He's a very sensitive horse and these exercises contained very much weight and voice and it worked... I just looked at some spot in the direction I wanted Xet to go and so he did... I didn't use neither the reins nor my legs... It was really awesome ^^,

Tomorrow it's "cleaning day" in the stables and we're going to grill afterwards. It's gonna fun ^^

Gonna go and make a new header and search for more DuelJewel info. I didn't get satisfied with the colours on the current one.

Have a nice day!

There we go

Then I had a new layout again. The last one was for hide's 10th year Death anniversary.

I got very much to do at the moment, that's why I don't write anything.
I got;
Today, German test.
This week: physics
Next week: physics, biologhy, english, other work, swedish
Week after that: biologhy, history.

This is also BIG works... So I have much to do -.-''

Now I'm gonna go back to Star Golden Bell, episode 184 from 051008 with Epik High <3

Hideto 'hide' Matsumoto <3

Hideto 'hide' Matsumoto

13 December 1864 - 2 May 1998

2nd May 2008 - 10th Year Death Anniversary

Let's remember our Pinku Supaidaa muisican with a big smile, ne? =D

Competition

On saturday me + horse are going to compete. It's a D-competition and we're going to compete in three classes. Western riding, pleasure walk and trot, and trail.
We have been training pretty much so I think it's gonna go pretty well. Hope I don't do any misstakes though...

I've gotten really in love with Epik High and Nell lately...
I really love their version of 'I'll be missing you'.

That is a thing that shows the difference between me and other kids around here. When you're around 4-5, you start remembering things. My friends remember disney movies and toys mostly. Or people. Those things are usual to be peoples first memory.
Mine isn't that at all.
My first memory is 'I'll be missing you'.
That song have been in my memory as long as I can remember...
I always watched MTV as a kid.. I didn't watch disney and usual channels with programs and tv shows for children... I watched MTV. At the age of 4-5...

That's only one difference between me and others around here.

I get so tired of this everlasting discussion...

I'm really tired now... My bff keep having her mood-turns or how to say... Then she also keeps complaining about how stupid she is, how depressed she is and so on..
Oh yeah? What the hell do you think I'VE been?! And how I feel now?!
I'm so sick of hearing that I'm "against" her, that I'm "sour" all the time, that I'm that and that and that... Who the hell have been teaching her everything, for SEVEN GOT DAMN YEARS?! Why can't people be thankful and accept ME for the one I am?!
And I've done everything I can to help her with the "depressment" or whatever, but she just keeps getting angry at me! Not angry literally, but sulky!

I'm not a fucking wizard, I can't make magic with my bare hands!
Stop complaining and got damn do something about it!
Then she also said she wanted to smash her head apart and I told her she should be happy that she's healthy.
"I'm depressed, then I'm not healthy". [The healthy I menat=Not having any disease]

Quote; "Loose screws have rather the one that can't realize, that every disease can strike anyone, anytime."

Sure, life can be though and rough, belive me, I know, but you shouldn't give up for that! I've been through the tv-show kind of relationships with the tv-show kind of endings, I've been victimzed, I've had it hard with school and all that shit. I've been got damn suicidal!
But did I give up for that?
NO.

I'm still here. Thanks to my horse, my friends and muisicans and one actor, Sung Kang, I'm still here. If Sung Kang hadn't said those two lines the way he did in TFATF; Tokyo Drift...
"Life's simple; You make choices and you don't look back."


That's the main thing I follow in my life.



Moon Heejun's new song; Obsession.

I GOT IN!

I GOT IN!!!
The school, programme and courses I wanted... I GOT IT!!! Also it was only 15 people who had searched for this programme, so we'll probably become a very small class too ^^,
I've never been in a small class... 25 people from 1st grade to 6th, 28 from 7th grade to 9th... There have never been a single quiet moment...

I also got my german homework-test back. 27/28... Pretty good xD
We also did a review on the old movie classic 'The Outsiders'. I can't belive it... Mine was one A4 page... And I got "Excellent, MVG" (highest grade) on it! I had done ONE single fault... ONE!!! Instead of writing just "come" I had written "comeS". That was the only fault on the whole of it...
I'm so proud ^^,

This is a very good day for me... One of the few.

This weekend was really bad... I had headache for three days and nothing helped neither... I also had to study to a chemistry test. Yay... I had the test today and I can't say it went good... It went really bad... And I wanted to keep my grade in chemistry... Bye bye to that~~

However, now I'm gonna go and read 'Conan' 8 manga... Mwahhahaha, I really love Conan! It's the only manga/book who've managed to scare me... Not even my friends can scare me xD

Have a nice day!

People always asks me; "How can you listen to these guys?
They look so ugly!"
You really wanna know why?

'Cuz they're UNIQUE.
DIFFERENT.

"Hey, look, you are drawing an obvious end
Dont try to pretend that you dont know anything now
Dont fall into it because you'll just become like everyone else
Why are you following them?"

"Ignoring the captured butterfly's desperate plea
You glare at the sky
"I didn't hurt because I hated,
I didn't have wings
And the sky was too high
You should use my wings, SPIDER
You don't know the pain of endless flight
And maybe you'll realize one day,
That you were only flying in the palms of someone else
And even dared to call that freedom."

"Your kind and gentle words can't heal me now"

"Endless rain, fall on my heart, on my heart's scar
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness"

"Do you remember The day we first met
The time we dreamed the same dream

Once again I ask
the reason of life
the reason of living
To the endlessly vast sky

How should I love you
How could I feel you
Without you
An endless poem of love To you

Even though I can't see you anymore
Your memory will live in my heart
Forever
As well as love does
So I won't say.... Good bye"

"The same old days, to a past you can't go back to
The dreams you're always chasing,
to the tomorrow right before your eyes
A firmly standing me, to a smiling you
Without hesitating, Together..."

---

All these wonderful people who have written these songs, are on the picture above.
This is the reason I can't live without them.
'Cuz they're not stupid and
I don't give a damn about looks!
They're all genius'
Even though, a genius is not the answer to all questions
It's the question to all answers...

---

Band/Singer - Song - Writer
The Trax - Are You Ready? - Rosebeetz (Rose)
Gackt - Redemption - ...
hide - Pink Spider - hide
X Japan - Endless Rain - Yoshiki
Yoshiki/X Japan - Without You - Yoshiki
Miyavi - Ashita, Genki ni Naare - ...

Two parts

I only have two main interests. Horses and music.
That have always been my number one interests, ever since I was a child...

When other children in my age watched tv shows for kids, I at the age of four-five, watched MTV. The first channel I remember watching, is MTV. So of course I can a lot about music artists, of course I have easy to remember and hearing voices, of course I love music even though I don't play any instruments or sing!

Horses have always given me the freedom that I can't reach in any other way... They have carried me over fields, rivers and mountains, they have nuzzled my hair when I've been down and raced with me when I wanted to feel alive.

I simply can't live without these two... So why can't everyone just accept that? Why can't they just live with that the things I talk about, is horses and music? Respect the emotions and the pride I feel, when I get to talk about these two?

Why?

War is coming up!

Oh my, now war is coming up in the korean music industry!

DSP Entertainment's new boyband A'st1 are challenging SM Entertainment's big boyband Super Junior. In a video you can see A'st1 members sitting on the ground and then Haimingl, the chinese members, writes in chinese on a blank scroll; "Defeat Super Junior".

I wonder if they're suicidal... E.L.F is really gonna bash the poor guys... But even though I'm an SuJu fan, I really like this. Now LSM will get a real challenge ^^ Thanks DSP!

This reminds me of the japanese manga Gravitation were the old super band Nittle Grasper challenges new band Bad Luck in a single recording competition. Is this going to be something like that? In that case, YAY!!!


However, I'm very happy at the moment, though something feels weird inside me...
Yesterday, me and Maja ordered Shinhwa's 10th Anniversary First Press Limited Edition :D There's only going to be 50.000 copies of that one!
A hologram bearing a number between 1 and 50,000 is affixed to each copy, making it a treasured memorabilia for many devoted fans.
Also I finally ordered H.O.T's 99 Live in Seoul :D I think my two manga books that I ordered on Monday is going to come today... It's One Piece 41 and God Child 2. I've waited so long for OP to come and now it's coming into my mailbox! XD *can't wait!*

Also, Xing have released a new digital single, T Express. Also a CF for a rollercoaster with the same name. It's worth looking, so here's the link: T Express

I think that was it...

Random;
Currently writing: 'Four Pieces' (pirate fanfic), 'Choices of Destiny' (fanfic including Yoon, Micky Yoochun, U-Know Yunho and Cho Kyuhyun) and 'Still Life' (Dong Bang horror fanfic).
Reading: Svensk Maffia (trans. Swedish Mafia)
Talking to: Piyoko and Tesse
Tv shows: House and So You Think You Can Dance Scandinavia
Mood: Happy but troubled
Manga: One Piece 41, God Child 2, Shaman King 6 and Conan 7.
Listening to: Xing - T Express

Race in the snow

Happy Birthday to Kim Jungmo of The Trax, Son Hoyoung of former G.O.D and Oh Wonbin of F.T Island!

Today I've only been in the stables. Both Jossan and Emelie were there, so we rode out together. When we had came to a straight path, Emelie wanted to see how fast Xet can trot, so we started trotting. But since it was pretty much snow it was a bit heavy for him and we didn't get any speed. Then Jossan said we could race a little in the slope that was coming. I just said okay and then we let the horses run.

That's a feeling many will never get to feel. Feeling the power of a horse that descend from fields of freedom, carrying you over snow covered paths and green fields with the ever-changing wind in one's hair and the sun warming your face, hearing only the sound of the horses' hoofs.
To feel the freedom.

Xet and I won, the others didn't get by. In the next slope, Emelie shortened her stirrup leathers and then she and Jossan got to start in front of me and Xet. But when we started galloping again, Xet and I ran by both of them and won again ^^ We're not that easy beaten =P


Now I've been looking through some forums and so, and this is an article about H.O.T's fans that I read on http://dedicatedtohot02.cjb.net/. I must say, H.O.T fans are really different than todays fans... The H.O.T fans that I've talked to (even though just over the net) are much more different than fans of TVXQ, F.T Island, Super Junior and all... No offence, I just wanted to state that.

“Although our hearts are still one, but each of them has gone on the separate ways…”

We’ve been waiting for such a long time, so long that we’ve forgotten a lot of things.

Hee Jun, who always has his warming smile on his face, has always looking strong. He sings the powerful rock music that made all of us think that he is the strongest amongst all.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is actually a very fragile person. When he sings the song that he wrote for the guys (refer to h.o.t) he cried, he always only has 4 back dancer. His heart still remains at the time where they were together…. Before he left (for the services), he said: don’t leave me, if you change your heart then all you are liars, betrayers, idiots, cowards…

Oppa, we knew how you feel… Didn’t we make a promise before? When you’re back here with us, we would let you see oceans of white colored balloons…

Though he could be funny at times, but, because most of the time he doesn’t smile, a lot of people thinks that he is a cold blooded person.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is a caring person. It’s just that he couldn’t express things in words. He would kindly ask the fans that have been waiting outside of his house to go home sooner once they feel cold. He used 3 million to buy 3 songs of H.O.T just because we want to hear it. He can smile saying, “I’m H.O.T’s Jang Woo Hyuk,”

Oppa, it’s been quite some time that we didn’t see each other. I’ve been telling myself that you would do well; even I knew that it’s just a lie to comfort myself. I’ve been praying that you would live well, but what I see is that you’ve become so skinny… My heart hurts… If we really did something wrong, then shouldn’t you just blame it on us and not making him suffer?

Tony, who made us feel that he doesn’t care about a thing.

But, we’ve forgotten that he is a sensitive person. He remembers every single thing that got something to do with H.O.T. Because of one word, he could cry out loud in Guerilla Concert. He said, “I don’t mind if you all like other handsome and pretty singers, but please don’t leave us behind,” He also wrote, “We have to see each other again in heaven, that way, we could be together forever…,”

Oppa, maybe you don’t know that we won’t be able to leave someone that we love so much… We promised that we would meet again in heaven someday…

Kang Ta who has always been receiving the blame, he would just smile at us, making us forget that he is actually not that strong enough…

Don’t you all remember? When he went to buy food for us? When he gives us his umbrellas just because he afraid we would caught in cold when it’s raining. When he sees us crying, he said, “Don’t cry, I love all you…,”

Oppa, my heart hurts knowing you’ve been forcing yourself to smile when people badmouthing you, you don’t even try to explain a thing…

Jae Won who has been living peacefully

But we’ve forgotten that he has his own pride. He gets angry of himself when he did some mistake in the last concert. In his downtime, he bravely announced, “This album is not succeed, I, Lee Jae Won, withdraw from entertainment world,”

Oppa, now we’ve understand that this way is the happiest way…

Five people, three people or even alone… From past until now, H.O.T remains undefeatable.

But we’ve forgotten that the separation hurts every of them…

How it feels being betrayed by the loved ones, how it feels not being able to explain a thing when you’ve been blamed on, being put aside, being looked down by others… How does it feel?

6 years, it’s been 6 years… Ever since then, we’ve lost everything… No one has been able to helps us to speak up, so everyone thinks that we can be bullied. So, they keep doing the bad things and giving the responsibilities to us… So, they dare to shout at us, again and again…

It’s hurting… it’s exhausting… but, because we are H.O.T’s fans, we have to be brave; because we are H.O.T’s fans, we cannot lose to others; because we are H.O.T’s fans, so we cannot lose hopes… Just cry out loud when we feel exhausted, then dry up your tears and stand up once again…

We are not blinded, we are not insane, and we are merely just being touched by the innocence and kindness of the five guys. So, we would be together as one forever… "

credit : cwwan
translation: utte86@dedicatedtohot02.cjb.net

CHUNSAS YONGWONHI!

Naruto

Ah, today the only thing I have done is watching Naruto. It was a v ery long time since last and I felt that I needed this. This is the first day on more than 6 months that I have spent on watching Naruto... I've really missed it!!! But I really don't like being inside when there's nice weather outside and so... I become restless then, I need to get out my energy. But tomorrow I'm going to the stables, so it'll work out anyway ^^



Here's a little something me and my friends use to do. The only thing you need is some music and a shuffle/random button ^^



Put your player on shuffle/random and then put the next singers name on the answer. If it's a group/band, the first person who sings is the one that you write.

This person is going to be...

1. Your friend
   Kim Seheon (EVE)


2. BFF (Best friend forever)
   Toshi (X Japan) :D


3. Your crush
   Tony An (JTL) NICE!


4. Your teacher
   GACKT-SENSEI!!! XD <3


5. The one that's teasing you on the breaks
   Kim Seheon (EVE) xD


6. The busdriver
   Hongki (F.T Island)


7. Your lover
   Moon Heejun (H.O.T) YAY!!! <3


8. The person that cheated on you
   Kim Seheon (EVE) xD!


9. Your idol
   Son Hoyoung (G.O.D) True!!


10. Your God/Godess
    Lee Hyuk (Prana/Wiretap in my ear) MWAHAHA! :D


11. The popular brat
    Son Hoyoung (G.O.D) Haha! xD


12. The teachers pet
    Park Jaesang (PSY) XD


13. The one that always comforts you
    Moon Heejun (H.O.T) Aww!!!


14. The person that secretly has a crush on you
    Mithra Jin (Epik High) Aww Mithra oppa! :D


15. Your stalker
    Kim Jaejoong (TVXQ) xD I don't mind... xD


16. The person that your jealous on
    Lee Donghae (Super Junior)


17. The one that will save your life
    Kim X-mas Jungmo (The Trax) HOMG!!! <3


18. The scarecrow
    Eric Mun (Shinhwa) XD!!!!


19. Someone your going to meet in the future
    Ookawa Genki (Tenimyu cast) WOW!! He's so cute!!!


20. Your destiny
    Kim Jaejoong!! HOMG!!! HOMG!!! *dies*

Just a funny thingy

I'm currently waiting for Naruto episode 81 to load, so I'm making this list once again...

RULES: Put all your music on shuffle. Click on "Next" button for every question and use the songtitle as an answer for the question. Don't cheat!

Here's mine:

How are you today?
TooJi (Git it up!)

Will you go far in life?
ROCKS

How do your friends look at you?
I Do

Will you get married?
Unlock heavy edition

What's your lifes themesong?
Oasis

What's your life history?
Unlock

How is school for you?
The Spirit of Fighter

How can you go further in life?
Orochimaru ~fight~ (OH NO!!!)

How will tomorrow be?
Sad wedding song

What's the best with your friends?
I hope it's you

What's in store for next week?
Fly (XD)

What song describes you best?
Since You've Gone

How is it with your life?
Stay with me tonight

What song will play on your funeral?
Holden Caulfield

Will you live a good life?
Brand New (Oh you say ^^)

What does your friends think about you?
Happy End (...that scares me....)

Do you have a deep and dark secret?
Doobob

Do people around fantasize about you secretly?
Just say goodbye

How can you make yourself happy?
Flow

Will you ever have children?
Last Angel

Which song describes the one your attracted to?
Mirror

What would you say to the next generation?
Magic Castle

Any tips to me? (you behind that screen)
Blue (pian solo)

How will you be recognized?
Miduhyo

Which is your dancesong?
Knife

What do you think when you see your neighbor?
Miracle

How will you die?
Sasuke's theme (NO!! I don't want to go with Orochimaru!!!)

This is what you think about your best friend:
Git it up

New layout

Okay, I got tired of the dark colors and the layout type. Here's a new with lighter green colors and a Seheon x Miyavi header. Two of my absolute favourite rock singers, except for Jay Kim of The Trax, Gackt and Toshi from X Japan. The pic of Seheon, credit goes to the eve_rock LJ community and the one of Miyavi, cred to newnippon productions.

Today I've been at Camillas'. It was very fun. First she showed me her drawings which she's going to put on some shirts and I'm going to help her with. I've already done three shirts, so the people in my art class have named me professional. As they always do unfortunaly...
We also watched her thousands of pics of Cho Kyuhyun, the 13th SJ member and I got to play 'Naruto - Rise of the ninja'. It was really fun, we played the VS mode. I pretty much lost all the time, haha! But, when I was my favourite Naruto character, Kakashi, I won!!! Ah, the hentai's keep together!
We also went outside and rode some "madrass" which was a memory to never remember! Really fun. ^^

Hah, I nearly wrote a entry without a smiley!!! xD But now I can't anymore, it becomes so simply boring!

Music update
R-eal maybe debut this month
SS501 have made their comeback with the single Deja Vu
Epik High are doing their 5th album 'Pieces, part one' comeback in mid-April
Battle are going to do their comeback in April too.
No news on The Trax. Rumours says Jay have gone to the hospital again, but it's only some minor rumors.
Super Junior have their tour...

Random;
Currently writing: 'Four Pieces' (pirate fanfic), 'Choices of Destiny' (fanfic including Yoon, Micky Yoochun, U-Know Yunho and Cho Kyuhyun) and 'Still Life' (Dong Bang horror fanfic).
Reading: Svensk Maffia (trans. Swedish Mafia)
Talking to: Malin and Jossan
Tv shows: House and So You Think You Can Dance Scandinavia
Mood: -Blank-
Manga: One Piece 41, God Child 2, Shaman King 6 and Conan 7.
Listening to: sEVEnth Evening - Don't Wanna Love You

Have a nice day!

New groups ^^

I've just discovered two new groups. One that have debuted today, A'st1. I've only heard samples from them, but I think they all have good voices and they're good looking (of course...) Their group name is A'st1.

The other group caught me a lil' more... They will (probably) debut this year by the name R-eal. They're a typical 5 pretty boys boyband. The leader of this group is Yoon (Ahn SoonYong). Then we got the other four members;
Changhyun (Park Changhyun)
Inseok (Hwang Inseok)
Jinwoong (Park Jinwoong)
Sangil (Park Sangil)

So far I have only heard Jinwoong and Sangil sing, but it sounds good ^^, Judging by their voices just by talking I must say I really like all of their voices ^^,
A link to their english forum is in the links list, go check it out! ^^

Otherwise today it have been pretty nice... I was supposed to ride with two friends on a really long ride, but that didn't happen... One of my friends had problems with her horse, so she couldn't. I let Xet (horse) run loose for a little while in the paddock to see so that one of his left side shoes would be stuck... 'Cuz yesterday he dropped one of them but we managed to get it back. But today it fell of again -.-
So it didn't happen anything... We watched when another horse ran around in the paddock. It was very nice actually... Xet just stood there and enjoyed being around people and just have to stand and sleep in the sun. A friend threw me up on his back and then I just lay down over his back and neck ^^, We were enjoying this day very much even though we didn't even move xD

But it's kind of boring when I'm not in the stables... I don't have anything to do. Camilla can't come since she doesn't have anyone to drive her, Tess are in the mountains, skiing and Maja is pretty unmoveable... Well, at least I got forums, writing and my books ^^,
Tomorrow I'm gonna cut my hair. Just a decimeter or so.. Thursday is my birthday... Well, otherwise its not much...

Have a nice day!

...

R.I.P

Died - On the way to her paitent

The 42-year old mother got streamrollered by an X200 (train) - got dragged over 100 meters

Even if you left the family long ago, we're still gonna remember you.

C. W. 2/2/2008

Snow AND rain...

Last week the weatherforecast told that the spring had come, even to the northern parts. We usually get spring in april-may, but now we got it in february... I thought it was way to early since I use to have snow on my birthday which is in march...
Well, today the snow came again. Also it was raining, then snowing, raining again and so on.

I was out riding today also and Xet (horse) is gonig very well. He has had problems with his knees, legs and so on a couple of years ago when he was younger, so we have started to give him something called "glucosamin" and some "liniment" which will help him. And, it really helps 'cuz he's really spirited now and jumps up in the air at least one time per ride. If his legs had hurt, he wouldn't be like that. Last summer, at the end, I think they hurted and that the heat was not very good for him... He didn't have any fortitude at all.. But he's better and this summer we're going to ride only really really early in the mornings or after 8 p.m.

Recently my fan-love for korean group/band H.O.T and sEVEnth Evening have started to grow even stronger... I just can't get enough of them!!! I was watching tons of live and MV videos of EVE and also H.O.T yesterday. Also, my Jang Woohyuk 2nd live concert dvd came yesterday. I just love it! Gotta watch it once again ^^,

Have a nice day!

So long...

I'm so sorry for not writing for so long time!! You can't imagine how much I've had to do -.-''

Test after test after test... I got very good on the history test, I sucked at the german test and I was VERY close to the highest grade in the national swedish read-understanding test. Yesterday we did our english test and today the politics test. I hope I'll get good grades on them, I need them.

Today I also got my 2nd live concert dvd with Jang Woohyuk. I love it!!! When he performed Candy and Haengbok, I literally jumped around in the sofa, singing along! xD Can't wait to show my friends, they're gonna jump around too ^^,

I don't really have much to say... My birthday is in next week and I have vacations now so everything is good at the moment ^^

Things to do.

Well yes, I always have things to do. But actually, I'm finished with my physics, biology and english homework ^^, I was thinking about doing my handicraft homework too, but I'll do that tomorrow. It doesn't have to be done in... 3 weeks xD

So at the moment I'm talking Fari, bww2 forum and listening to some music.
*Me having boring*

Fari is going to help me with a movie. It needs subs.
I've gotten TRI-angle with Dbsk, Boa and The Trax ( <3 ) on my walkman mp3 thingy.. And also Dbsk's O Jun Ban Hub performance. Really good quality ^^
And yes, I really don't have anything to say today.

Sorry for wasting your time =P

So sick of this shit!

I'm so sick of this fucking shit!
My friends parents doesn't care that they like asian music and asian stuff, their dads and mums have even learned names of the groups and some members. Mine only say "oh are you listening to that ching chong music again?" 'Ching chong' is a very negative term here. And tonight when I was looking through some channels on the tv, the movie 'Black Mask', which I wanted to see. Then my mum said "Oh no, not a ching chong movie! I'm not watching that!" And then I asked why and she answered "Because all chinese movies are bad!"
ALL?! She say she have seen many but I REALLY doubt it and she havn't seen ALL CHINESE MOVIES in the fucking world!

Why can't they just accept that I like asian music, movies and culture? They didn't like it when I wanted to turn my room into an elf room either! They're never happy with what I like... I wish Maja and I could win money so that we could get our own apartment... It would be really great... We share the same interests and fit each others personalities very good. She is lazy, cook good food, crazy and doesn't get much. I'm very calm, sarcastic, weird and the only one that can explain things for her, so that she'll understand... xD
We like asian things, kind of the same programs (not always) and together we're the best cooking team xD I don't know how to explain... I'll try...;
I have three best friends. You could compare us with manga figures...
Maja is the crazy, loud, lazy and sometimes very smart one. But when she doesn't get it, she really don't. Then Tess, the not so smart, happy, funny girl that says what she thinks (without thinking of what she's saying) tries to explain for Maja. Then Maja just get more confused and Camilla, the half calm, normal, very talanted draw-person tries to explain which makes Maja go crazy. Then I come, the sarcastic, calm, seen as a genius girl, telling Tess & Camilla to back away and then I calmly explain for Maja so that she'll understand.
We also react like manga figures which is too hard to explain xD

But I'm sick of hearing the negative 'ching chong' frase and I just wanna show them how good asian movies, music and all can be and ARE; but they have decided on their own that ALL asian things are just shit.
It doesn't matter what I shows, they always find faults in it.

They won't ever accept it.
But I won't ever give up.
And everyone here knows that I'll be the last one standing.

Horror ride

Ah, what a week... Thursday this week, I was out riding on my horse Xet. We rode on the riding schools lands and when we had come up a slope and when we got up, Xet stopped very quickly. He started to breath, after a short while so loudly that it echoed through the whole wood! And his heart started to beat, so hard that it felt like thrusts in my legs!

I relazied that it had to be some predators near. I couldn't see since it was dark and I (of course) forgot my headlamp at home... We managed to go by and go home, but Xet wanted to run all the time and once he nearly stepped up.. The day after (yesterday) we rode back there and I saw the footprints of a catamount. (picture)

Photo: Torbjörn Lilja, Naturfotograferna. (Naturephotographers)

Really scary... Though, I didn't get scared until we had come home to the stables and I was on my way home. I was totally calm under the whole ride home which takes 30 minutes... I'm weird xD But I don't ever want to meet a catamount again. Not on a horseback at least...

So much to do...

Oh got so much to do again -.-
So for you TCG people, keep on asking for trades but please have patience 'cause I probably wont be able to answer right away!

School's started again -.-

I know I shouldn't complain about it, but I really don't like school. It's full of brats and others that think they're so cool and can say whatever they want, do whatever they want and so on... No respect AT ALL! And the teachers think that we'll give them respect directly, but HEY! They think they're some kind of kings and queens! If you want my respect, you should act respectfully towards others.

Like today... Me and my three friends reads tons of manga. One of them had a manga book with her today (Shaman King3) and then we were supposed to go and borrow some book the whole class will read together. Then when we stood in the line, waiting for borrowing the stupid book, two guys of my class (the ones that teased me every single day in 7th grade) stood behind us and said "Ah, how the hell can you read manga? It's stupid! Reading to book the wrong way!" and so on. Oh yeah, you're kidding? Just because they're so dumb they can't even read a SWEDISH BOOK even though they've lived ALL their lives here in SWEDEN. Idiots -.-

And by the way, what do they get out of this shit-talking? Huh? Exactly what do you get out of talking shit about peoples interests, peoples things, their friends, their way of being?

Go to hell.

She'll end up like Anna Nicole Smith.

Where is the world going?
The teenage idol Britney Spears is just falling more and more... After reading the latest article about her, I am pretty sure she'll end up like Anna Nicole Smith. It's tragical that such a bright girl can end up like this..
It's also very bad that girls like her and other stars can have so much money, while there's people out in the world that don't even have water to drink, clothes and a pair of shoes.

I try to eat as much as I can and be thankful for it. Not thankful to God, but to my family for working hard, so that we'll have money to food, clothes and all these things.
I try to think positive and be thankful for everything I have.
I try to study as hard as I can, so that I can get good grades and maybe good jobs in the future, with high pay; so that I can be able to feed both my own future family and give away money.

That is my dream... I want to become rich so that I can give the money to those who needs it more.. So that the bad politicans and people with high pay that only waste their money, can't get the money and spend it on those totally unnecessary things.
So that those who needs it can get it, and actually get clothes and food and survive.

My homepage is up again

Now, after at least a year, my homepage is up and running again. It's in swedish and is about me and 'my' horse, Exemplar. If you want to look, the adress is: http://kleggismule.minsite.net

Today I have been in the stables and I rode Exemplar. For the first time in my whole life, the weather was on my side.. We stepped out of the stables and right then the snow stopped falling and the wind took off! Otherwise it have always been like, when we step out of the stable, it starts to rain or snow or something like that. I'm really grateful to the weathergods for letting me have a nice day ^^,

Then I've only been working on the homepage. Now I'm going to look at some forums and Heartchu TCG so that I don't miss anything and then I will maybe start working on uploading new pictures on the site. Otherwise I'll go and write some on my new fanfic 'A Deeper Secret'. It's a samurai story including, me + 3 friends, Camui Gackt, Cho Kyuhyun, Park 'Micky' Yoochun and Park 'Leeteuk' Jungsu.

Have a nice day!

Then it was a new year

Ah, then it was a new year. I got a couple of photographs of the fireworks and they turned out pretty well for once. Last year I got two good pics and the rest was just to throw away.

At the moment I'm moving songs to my sony walkman that I got for christmas. Since I've gotten stuck on 'Four Pieces' I'm currently writing on a new story, 'A Deeper Secret'. It's about three girls whose fourth friend disappeard many years ago. Now they've heard rumors about her, being with one of the countries most skilled samurai warriors, up on a notorious mountains. Now they're going to get there, but they need help.. 'Cause no one have ever been able to climb up that mountain, neither walked the roads upon it except for the samurai warriors men and himself.

Therefore, I need some music that gives me ideas and makes my fantasy come. The best for that is the mysterious and uplifting melody of Gregorian.



I always listen to this when I need inspiration.
At least it gives me ideas...
Buy here

1. Heroes (David Bowie)
2. Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd)
3. Send Me an Angel (Real Life)
4. Silent Lucidity (Queensrÿche)
"Lady in Black" (Uriah Heep)
5. The Forest
6. A Weakened Soul
7. Lucky Man (Emerson, Lake and Palmer)
8. Stop Crying Your Heart Out (Oasis)
9. We Love You (The Rolling Stones)
10. Boulevard of Broken Dreams (Green Day)
11. The Unforgiven (Metallica)
12. I Feel Free (Cream)

Though, I have only four old cd's. This one is a newer I think..

However, now I'm gonna go and keep on writing. I've filled my walkman, so, have a nice day!